Scared ya? Well, I'm back, three days later. Sorry bout that, but they've been quite tough. As expected, we went to the ER Sunday morning and it turned out I needed blood AND platelets. In fact the platelets were the lowest they'd ever been (scary, since i could bleed internally). Anyway, I was admitted and had to spend the night and half of Monday there. The thing that pissed me off most was that Sunday was my daughter Amar's birthday and I couldn't spend it with her. Luckily we had done a small celebration the day b4 just in case (Cyba's idea, tks ).
Then the rest of Monday, just like every time I come back home, it takes me a while to feel at ease and and and ya3ni tough Monday. As for today, ya sater, decision day! Very stressful, very intense. I had to decide where I will do the BMT! I don't even want to think about it let alone think of its details. But it has to be done sooner or later. Uuuuuf, soooo difficult.
Then my Big Bro, my donor-to-be took me for a drive in the afternoon. We drove all the way down to Saida. The weather was beautiful and the sea absolutely glorious. Makes you wanna live! It was a good ride.
I received new pictures and comments from some of you. Frances, tks for the posters (I prefer the pink one!). Sarah and Sarah welcome to my blog. You promised to write daily, I will be waiting. Carla, tks habibti for your kind words and support. And to everyone who has been following up on me thru this, whether u write sth or not, I'm just glad I have you behind me! It's a hellavaroughride, but with you guys I somehow feel stronger and more determined! (OK, now I sound as if I am giving an Oscar speech! sorry!) Yalla g'night and God bless. mwah. H
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Good to see this post today. Just a quick hi for now, will be back later - love you, sweetie
Hope you are sleeping well by now.
Sorry to hear about the platelets.
My daughter's friend has had 18 weeks in hospital with transfusions every few days, white, red, you name it - so I know where you are at. What a pain!
If they are going to do the BMT - we are all here hoping and keeping things crossed for you. Good you have a compatible donor so near - at least that.
I preferred the pink poster as well. More open.
So good you have a brother who is able and willing. What a lucky girl!
I'll be doubly praying for you, dear Hala. God bless and keep you!
Hey! it's been a while (almost 20 yrs I think)... :)
I just found out about this. Hope you'll get thru this real soon.
Take care habibti.
Hey Hala
Good to see you back -- amazing brother and sister you have -- great idea cyba re birthday!!! and that drive sounds wonderful!!!
Good luck with all your decisions - dont fret about it habibti God has a mysterious way of letting things fall in place -- trust me from experience -- it will all go very smoothly inshalah!!!
Have a happy happy positive day!!
Tammy
My Dear Friend Hala. I miss you so much, especially when I saw your pictures. I havent seen you in over 20 years!! By the way you still look exactly the same. I admire your strength Hala, like I always did in the good old days at IC. You dont take no for an answer and are always ready to fight for what's right. I am so proud of you. I did a google search on you when I heard you got lukemia again from Zena Khayat and Zena Jisr. I was desperate to reach you, I stumbled on a web site that has your cockies and cakes. Amazing stuff by the way! I always knew you will one day become someone famous, and you did my dear friend. There is so much to tell you and for you to tell me, about 20 years to be persice. I am praying for you as are all my friends and family. We are going to fight this Hala, cause you always said when there is a will, there is a way! And will will win at the end, we just have to say very positive and remove any negative thoughts as they have no place in our lives. Remember when you used love that song: love is a battlefield? and I always used to reply: a battlefield needs love?? My god, those days at IC, I will never ever forget.
Hala, I want you to know, I am here for you, through thick or thin. Things are going to be okay sweetie. Send me your mobile number, I would love to talk to you. Send my love to your family and am hoping to hear from you soon.
hugs and kisses xxxxxxoooooo
Reem Rahhal
My Dear Friend Hala. I miss you so much, especially when I saw your pictures. I havent seen you in over 20 years!! By the way you still look exactly the same. I admire your strength Hala, like I always did in the good old days at IC. You dont take no for an answer and are always ready to fight for what's right. I am so proud of you. I did a google search on you when I heard you got lukemia again from Zena Khayat and Zena Jisr. I was desperate to reach you, I stumbled on a web site that has your cockies and cakes. Amazing stuff by the way! I always knew you will one day become someone famous, and you did my dear friend. There is so much to tell you and for you to tell me, about 20 years to be persice. I am praying for you as are all my friends and family. We are going to fight this Hala, cause you always said when there is a will, there is a way! And will will win at the end, we just have to say very positive and remove any negative thoughts as they have no place in our lives. Remember when you used love that song: love is a battlefield? and I always used to reply: a battlefield needs love?? My god, those days at IC, I will never ever forget.
Hala, I want you to know, I am here for you, through thick or thin. Things are going to be okay sweetie. Send me your mobile number, I would love to talk to you. Send my love to your family and am hoping to hear from you soon.
hugs and kisses xxxxxxoooooo
Reem Rahhal
Hala Magique, I am so sorry you are going through this again, I had no idea until I got an email just now! You will get through this i am sure, you have the spirit, I loved reading through your blog, you are so brave, stay that way. I am thinking of you and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I will check on you everyday :)
HUGZ
Zena
Hi habibteh, I missed you those last few days. Hope you are feeling better.
No matter what descion you take, it will be the good one, just follow your heart, god is in it. All will be fine sweetheart.
We are praying for you habibteh.
Be healed, I love you
Tala
Dropped in on you again. Hope you are resting and feeling strong.
Powerful wishes from here in England
Love and hugs
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